Thursday, March 29, 2012

My Melancholy Heart

Ever felt so glum because you were troubled and you had nobody to talk to? Ever feel like the world was moving too fast for you? I know people who work their whole lives to reach their dreams and once they get there, they find it lonely and empty.
They resort to drugs and eventually suicide. That is exactly what happened to those funnymen found hanging in their apartments.
People say "Who would have guessed that he was depressed? He was always laughing and joking around."
I believe that if you look hard enough, you would be able to sense when a friend is feeling down. Left alone and that friend will go deeper into the hole of sadness and eventually fall into depression.
Small things may trigger sadness.
Look out for the signs. Reach out to your friend. A friend in need is a friend indeed.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

a little lesson in happiness.

I spent the morning smiling to myself today.

All my life I've had many people that I am such a happy person.

BUT

I've also always had many people tell me that I'm too sad.

So while I admit that I'm an easily to get emotional person,
today I realised that it takes
just the littlest things to make me happy too!

And for that, I am thankful.

But I've also realised today that there's a slight difference between realistic happiness and surreal happiness - but that doesn't apply to everyone and I'll get to that later.

So today I've felt the happiest I've ever felt in quite a while. When it rains, it pours - even when it comes to the good stuff. Last week I had a massive life lesson on growing up and this week, I seem to be getting a lesson on being humble and thankful.

Loads of people out there say that happiness is a choice - and that you get it from within yourself, and that no one else controls your happiness, etc (and all that crap), so I am extra thankful that the reasons I've been happy lately are because of other people.

love is annoying


Love truly is annoying - in my opinion at the very least.

It surrounds us, it drowns us, it dominates our thoughts.

And if you're anything like me - happily single, that is, or single by choice - you can understand how irritating it can get when people rub it onto our faces against our will.

Aside from the obvious - long lost relatives asking why you don't have a girlfriend, your mother accusing every girl friend of being your latest squeeze, etc - there seems to be no escaping the damn topic!

If one of your friends/colleagues/siblings isn't gushing over someone they found attractive, it's about someone who just broke their heart. Either that, or someone you know is about to get hitched.

It gets worse if you work/listen to mainstream radio. If the song isn't about sex, drugs or murder (I'm talking about you, Foster the People!), it's about frickin' love love love! That's why Ne-Yo kept asking himself why he couldn't turn off the radio when he was heartbroken. (I'm even making mainstream references now. Wow.)

Full shelves of chick lit, sold out chick flicks.

And after the sappy confrontation, I can't help but wonder:

Am I actually missing out on something here?

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Miss that!

I miss the feeling of being cared.
I miss the feeling where I can talk to you whenever I need to.
I miss the feeling of always being the top priority.
I miss the feeling of being spoilt.
I miss the feeling of talking on the phone for hours and not sleeping.
I miss those long Saturday nights where we talk about everything.
Most importantly I MISS YOU
 when you took all of these feelings away :'(

Monday, March 12, 2012

That was not the whole truth

I told friends that I'll be going to the northern region for recce.
Well its only half the truth.
I'm going back to Penang for something else.
I sure hope everything goes smoothly.
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Saturday, March 3, 2012

Two choices

*this is an email I received from my dad... just wanna share with you guys :')*
What would you do?....you make the choice. Don't look for a punch line, there isn't one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would  you  have  a  choice?


At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves children with learning disabilities, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its

dedicated staff, he offered a question:

'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does, is done with perfection.

Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do.


Where is the natural order of things in my son?'




The audience was stilled by the query.



The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, who was mentally and physically disabled comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'

Then he told the following story:



Shay and I had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?' I knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but as a father I also understood that if my son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.



I approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.'



Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. I watched with a small tear in my eye and warmth in my heart. The boys saw my joy at my son being accepted.

In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three.

In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as I waved to him from the stands.

In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.

Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.



At this juncture, do the others let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?

Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.



However, as Shay stepped up to the

plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact.

The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed.

The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.

As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.



The game would now be over.

The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman.

Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.



Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates.

Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first!

Run to first!'

Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base.

He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.



Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!'

Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base.

By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball. The smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team.

He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.

Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.



All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'



Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third!

Shay, run to third!'



As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!'

Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team



'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, 'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.



Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making me so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day !



AND NOW A LITTLE FOOT NOTE TO THIS STORY:

We all send thousands of jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it comes to sending messages about life choices, people hesitate.

The crude, vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion about decency is too often suppressed in our schools and workplaces.




If you're thinking about forwarding this message, chances are that you're probably sorting out the people in your address book who aren't the 'appropriate' ones to receive this type of message Well, the person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference.


We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the 'natural order of things.'

So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice:

Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up those opportunities and leave the world a little bit colder in the process?



A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's least fortunate amongst them.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

I dont Understand

 In McD:
1. Sauce - Why do people dispense tubs of tomato ketchup/chilli sauce, 
then only consume half of it? 
Or dispense a large splurge on the lid of burger box, only to dip a few fries in it?
2. Coke - Why do people ask for full cup refill, drink a sip then leave off? 
3. Table - Food and drinks is served on tray, and dustbins are provided in every corner of restaurant,
 but why don't people clean up the table after dining?
 They are able to self-service at the counter, but lets other do the cleaning after they eat?
4. McD Library - Why do people bring books to study in McD? 
Yes they have the rights to order a small coke and sit for 24 hours. 
If so, why don't we eat in the library?
5. Why do people bring stacks of extension plug, 
connect all to laptops, and turn the McD into a cybercafe?
And everyone sits there not talking to each other.

While it is not against the law, but don't these people know how to act and behave? I don't understand.