MAKING DRASTIC CHANGES AND TRYING TO FORGET THE PAST!!!

YO!!!

First of all I would like to apologize for not blogging for more than a week... Sorry blog :(

Well, the next thing will be Rachael... I appreciate you coming all the way from KL to come and meet me and I'm sorry I yelled at you at Gurney. I've stop calling you this few days because I'm trying to concentrate on my studies but I still cant get you off my mind I'll try for a few more days.... After that only god knows what will happen. Haiz....

OK... the next thing will be about AJ's roommate, I was so shocked to hear about her father's departure. I really couldn't imagine how is she feeling right now. I hope everything goes well for her family...

The next day was kind of a rescue mission... it was Wednesday night. earlier that day, AJ's friends came to visit her at her hostel. At night they went to KFC for dinner. Des, Jie and Leong went to Net City to play game. I actually wanted to follow AJ and her friends but then I was a little bit shy cause I never meet them before, and I didn't want to follow Des they all to Net City cause I've stop going to CC already. So I ended up staying at Jie's hostel and waiting for them to come back. I was really in a bad mood at that time when AJ suddenly called me... she told me that her friends car ran out of petrol and the area she they were stuck at was a bad area. I quickly got on my bike and was ready to get to them when it started to rain... so I quickly called Desmond to come and pick me up and bring the petrol to them. When I called AJ.. I can hear her voice that she was so terrified. Leong also followed us. After all that was over then only Des, Jie and I went for dinner.

Tomorrow I will be going to Kok Whey's birthday party... I'm going to meet Stephanie there... At first she told me to write a vow to her, after days of thinking.... I realise that I did not did anything wrong. If she doesn't want to be my friend then so be it!!! If there is anything special happening tomorrow I will write in the blog tomorrow...

I would like to say a few things to the people who might view my blog:

Rachael: I really love you... the thing is now that I really need to concentrate on my studies. I'm not breaking up with you... I'm just trying to focus on my studies. I hope you will understand all this. I will call you in a few days time. By the way thanks for the bracelet... I will love you always.. Muackzs....

Desmond: Thanks for being a good and caring friend. Sometimes, I just cannot tell you my feelings its personnel. By the way... if i catch you smoking one more time I'll call your mother, seriously..

AJ: For the past few days I have mix moods.. If I had ever hurt your feelings, I would like to apologise. I also hope that all your problems with your BF will solve soon and you will be happy again. Another thing is that please go and see a doctor A.S.A.P you are very sick already. Hope to see you healthy again this Monday.

Leong: I don't really know if you will read my blog or not but I just wan to say that once a while when you are with AJ try not to over do it... i know you love her but she already has a BF and you cant expect her to love you back... she can only be your friend right now. Try to be a man and think rasionally. (NO OFFENCE YA^^)

Thats all for this time...

HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO ALL MY HINDU FRIENDS OUT THERE!!!

VIKRAM~~

Its all mixes up.... I'm speechless...

YO!!!

Its been more than a week since I last blogged, too many things happen in such little time.... most of it is better to forget!..... haiz...

The reason I'm writting today is because I want to thank god from saving my life this afternoon. I was heading to my hostel when a car in front of me suddenly made a U-turn... I was going around 80km/h I juz managed to avoid the car. My left leg actually rub agains the car's bumper. I was so terrified that I stopped for a while to catch my breath... I'm really thankfull that I'm OK.

Today she called me... I was overjoyed when I know that shes coming to Penang for the weekends. But then..... after the call, I felt a little weird.... Its like I cant wait for her already.... I'm so anxious to meet her for some reason.... haiz... I hope i can bear just a few more days.
I think thats all I have to write for this time...

Bye!!!

Vikram**

Dont wanna lose you babe...

I never thought that I would lose my mind
That I could control this
Never thought that I'd be left behind
That I was stronger than you,
Girl if only I knew what I've done
You know, so why don't you tell me
And I, I would bring down the moon and the sun
To show how much I care
Don't wanna lose you nowBaby,
I know we can win this
Don't wanna lose you now
No no, or ever again
I've got this feeling you're not gonna stay
It's burning within me
The fear of losingOf slipping away
It just keeps getting closer, baby
Whatever reason to leave that I've had
My place was always beside you
And I wish that I didn't need you so bad
Your face just won't go away.....
SIGHTS....

Vikram**

I promise you...

It's in the silences,
the words you never say,
i see it in your eyes,
it always starts the same way,
it seems like everyone we know,
is breaking up
Does anybody ever stay in love, anymore?
I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again
with everything I am...

There are no guarantees
That's what you always say to me.
But late at night I feel the tremble in your touch
Well... what i'm trying to say to you
I never said to anyone:
I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again.
Sights....... You are my everything!!!


Vikram**

PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIANALLY HURT...

YO!!!



The Physical Part.



Yesterday while I was playing basketball, I sprain my ankle. I got the rebound but I the way i landed was the wrong way... So, now there is an ice bag on my ankle... I can still walk. Its just hurts that's all. I should be fine my Monday... hopefully la...haiz...



The Emotianal Part.



Well... yesterday Rachael went back to KL d... Since the first day i met her until now, I never miss her this much before. Usually I would forget about her in just few hours... But now, she is still in my mind. It drives me nuts... I can call her, but then I w might disturb her. So I just have to cope with it. HaizZz... The next thing also happened later that night. I father scolded me for something that I've done wrong... Its OK with me because I know I'm wrong. The i thing I cant take it is that when my dad scolds me, he will blame me on something that I've never done. That is what makes me angry and disappointed... But then just now I just spoke to him, I told about yesterday, at least he listen and apologize. So that's OK now... The main is HER right now... Sights... I really miss you.

Thats All for this time really no mood to go on....

Vikram**

So delighted....

YO!!!

I cant believe that Rachael actually came to Penang.... she told me that she cant find tickets... luckily her dad has business in Penang so she followed. Haha... i miss you alot.


Well today I woke up at around 10 like that. It was consider late cuz I'm at my aunt's house and I have to go back to BM and comeback again to fetch Rachael. My dad was waiting for me already. I quickly pack my things and we headed home. We reached there around 10.45 like that. I quickly take my bath and went straight back to Butterworth to fetch her.While on the way there, I realize that I had forgotten to take my camera... so no pics lo. haiz.... We reached QB around 1 like that. After almost an hour she finally found a dress that she likes... but cannot decide whether to take the green one or the maroon one, so she asked me. She tried both... i told they look the same. She said i got no taste :P zzzz. So i call AJ for assistance. When I called her, the line was breaking... Rachael was already walking away. So I faster sms her ... she said green looks better... I quickly told Rachael that, then she tooked it... phew that was close... the dress was RM150 like that. I payed for it. Later we went to Baskin Robbins for ice-cream and bought a few more things and then we headed home. At the car park I told her that I really love her but I just want to just pause our relationship for a while. I wanted to concentrate on my studies first and I'm also scard I will distract hers too. At first I thought I will make her cry or something... but she took it very well. I think it was because of last time.. I did promised her this once but after 5 months like that we got back together... haha... After i sent her home, I rushed back to my place cuz i dunwan to miss not playing basketball. I played with Wei Leong... My team won.. haha.. dunno lucky or really getting better... After basketball, I went home. I was surprised that my parents were sitting in the hall and preparing dinner. OMG!!! I had forgotten that I had promised them that I will be cooking dinner tonight. Luckily my mum had prepared all the ingredients for me... all i have to do is just cook. I made Stir-Fried Garlic Prawns. We only ate our dinner around 9 pm... haha. The prawns wan too spicy...oOps... :). After dinner me and my bro suddenly felt like eating ice-cream. So we quickly went to the mini market near our place and bought for our self a tupperware each. We actually finished the whole thing!!! haha... Tomorrow my parents will be going to Lumut. I'll be at home with my bro. I'll be taking Rachael to the new Jusco at my place... Hope that she enjoys... OH.. by the way I want ot say thank you to AJ for ur advice, if not i dun think she will buy any others dress.

Here is the prawns that I cooked:




oOpsx I think I put too much thick soy sauce.
haiz... never mind la I'm just an amateur.
Next time I'll improve it...

OK la i think my blog will come to an end... got to get ready for tomorrow haha...

Bye.

Vikram**